Reblogged from forever90s
Whenever I attend the wedding, the first thing I look at isn’t the bride. It’s the groom. I like seeing the way he looks at her, like she’s the only woman in the world and all he could ever ask for was walking down the aisle in a white dress, ready to say yes to a life with him, and to love him for the rest of his life.
Before the wedding: “They wanted to pray together, but not see each other, before the ceremony.”
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The two most important days of your life is the day you’re born and the day you find out why.
I stopped writing in Tumblr cause too many changes were happening in my life. I broke up after a long relationship and then college started right there. I couldn’t find myself. I had separated from my close friends and I refused to find any more. I stopped writing in Tumblr because only depressing thoughts would come out. See? I thought I knew myself. I thought that high school was everything and anything I needed. Well, yeah, it was some pretty amazing 4 years of my life and I still miss it. But that’s not my life anymore. I’ve kinda changed. Learned to move on from a guy I cried everyday for, for about 2 months. Learned to live with someone who does not give me one bit of respect. Learned to accept harsh sarcastic comments from people without being hurt by it. Learned (but not put int effect) how to utilize my time. Learned how to keep in touch with my best friends and not thinking that our relationship has ended. Learned to not over-react when the ex who i used to cry or everyday texts me. Learned many new types of liquor. Learned beer before liquor, never sicker..Liquor before beer, never fear. Learned how to take care of a drunk person. Learned how to keep my parents happy- calling them before they call me. Learned how to do things I like and not living another person’s life.
Crazy how I learned so much in such a short amount of time, but I did. With my social and mental world enlarging, I sorta forgot how to balance out my grades. My ego hurt me the most. I didn’t ask anyone for help. My cousin offered and my friend offered but I just said “I got this, don’t worry”. No, I didn’t “got this”. I told my parents my grades and obviously they weren’t happy but they gave me insight on how to do better. They know scolding isn’t going to get me anywhere. You gotta find a solution. Surprisingly, they told me to relax over break. That was the last thing I wanted to do. I was going to just worry and not do anything else. But I’m going to actually relax, enjoy my time, and work to my fullest potential next semester. I will not let anything or anyone bring me down. This post sounds like a whole epiphany crap thing and wait, it actually is.
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I know it’s over played but I can’t stop listening to this song…
big bang theory <3 sheldon <33
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I don’t know what’s going on. I thought i started to feel in place at rutgers with so many ppl from school coming here. but its just not the ones i wanted. there are times i look at ppl around me and they are all so comfortable in their nests and im here listening to bhangra songs inside my room alone. there were days i opened up to ppl and had dinner with them. but today’s the day i just sit by myself with all these groups around me. i dont feel right. in place. i dont fit in yet. but other ppl do..how? i either gotta party or dress up really well here. i cant do either at the moment.
ppl say it’ll get better in the future but wtf, im not in the mood to wait who knows how long.
i’m just so sick of fcking “finding myself” after ive already done so. i dont need new friends. i dont need a change. i dont need my first love living 3 floors above me. i dont need the stress of worrying who he’s constantly with. i dont need any of this shit. ahhh im going psychotic. good thing i have it on record now.
